Yesterday we did get to go to the beach. It was a beautiful day and we had quite a restful and enjoyable time. I think I could sleep in those hammocks all day long, it is SO relaxing! After the beach we went to the mall to eat dinner at the food court. It´s been fun being here while the World Cup is going on because everywhere we go there are celebrations and parties in honor of the competition. They get so into it, I can´t imagine what it would be like if El Salvador was actually in the World Cup!
Atami Beach |
Last night before I went to sleep, I was thinking about the girls in this house and the things that they have been through. I was overcome with anger towards the men that have wronged them, abused them and stolen their innocence. I've actually never felt that angry in my entire life towards anyone, and these are people that I've never met before. I've never even seen their faces. Through their sin, they have forever impacted the lives of these girls and their children. No matter how many years pass, they will never forget what was done to them and their children will always know that they were the result of a horrible act. If I don´t constantly remind myself that God has a plan for these lives, I will lose my mind in anger and bitterness. I have to trust the words of Romans 9 and know that the Potter has molded each and every individual life.
People often ask if I ¨feel¨a specific calling to El Salvador. The answer is no. While I love this place and the people I have met here, I do not feel that God has called me to this country in particular. Rather, I am convinced that the Lord calls each of us to a life of following Him wherever He leads. If He allows me the chance to come back to El Salvador in the future I will go, whether it is for a week, a year or forever. I want to be where God wants me and therefore I´ll serve Him in a different country or in my hometown. If I packed up and moved to El Salvador on my own initiative and tried to serve the people here in my own strength I wouldn't last more than a day and I would feel no peace or satisfaction. A verse that has been challenging me over the past few weeks in I John 3 verse 17 - ¨If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?¨ This applies to me no matter where I am. There are people in need all around me and I am called to love them.
Please keep us in your prayers and thoughts as we say good-bye tomorrow. It´s gonna be a long day of traveling but we´re hoping that everything goes smoothly. We´ll all be ready to get home and see our families.
I plan on spending the rest of the week sleeping and going to Starbucks (of course)!!